Once he loved her
Once he could
See her as a flower
The days would rise
And set in her eyes
A sweetness he'd devour
Slowly it took him over
Seeds from the darkside
Planted when just a boy
Grew wild inside him now
The skin between your heart and mine
Like sun to moon and earth to sky
And brains are washed in glossy lies
Till beautiful means perfect in our minds

Hated himself
All his life
Couldn't own his blessings
Pushed aside every ray of light
That photographed him shining
Slowly he wanted more
Than she could ever give
With her he fantasized
About a movie star
The skin between your heart and mine
Like sun to moon and earth to sky
And brains are washed in glossy lies
Till beautiful means perfect in our minds

Slowly he went too far/ flame to the fire
His breath curling all the pages of a magazine

Time to leave the dead behind
Shed the weight suppressing me
A dark beautiful, naked life at the edge of the sea

Towards the sky I have been drawn
But alone, too scared to fly
Underneath her wings I was safe,
Till the tears ran dry

I've got a soul that she could not seem to reach
She'll never know how I feel
Brought down the wall, to her face I couldn't speak
I'll never touch her that way again

Cold up inside my body
numb in my mind, somebody wake me make me
Make me believe in love again
Now that I'm free from the ice queen

Her shoulder turned to let me fall
The sirens wailed as she slid away
In my head the demons came out to enjoy the day

She's got a soul that I just can't seem to reach
I'll never know how she feels
Up in her castle with the Empire at her feet
Shes rules her world, but not with me

Cold up inside my body
numb in my mind, somebody wake me make me
Make me believe in love again
Now that I'm free from the ice queen

Holding my own, but sometimes
I think I might break
Fragile in one breath
Then I'm strong and brave

Still, like a dark chameleon
Covered with time
Wearing it well
Though sometimes hard to find

Blowing a storm through my world
You change the way I feel
Alter the light when you appear

I don't know why you make me so uneasy
When you're next to me
Can it be you're the only one who can see me
So uneasy
But I'll come around, just give me time

Been on my own since I was
Born don't you know
People have come and gone,
Mostly they go

So will you be here when I'm down
Or leave to chase the sun
I really do want to believe

I don't know why you make me so uneasy
When you're next to me
Can it be you're the only one who can see me
So uneasy
But I'll come around, just give me time

Blowin a storm through my world
You change the way I feel
Alter the light when you appear
feed the atmosphere
Leave the night unclear

Well you know it's been awhile
I keep letting go of things and people too
Getting closer to the where
But how and when I just don't know
Till I get there
Lately i really miss you
Yeah I miss you all the time
Feels like I should be with you
But it's just my lonely mind
Another sidewalk lies beneath me
Glass and steel, places to go
Still I'm not moving
The city never sleeps and I'm tired
Of keeping up with nothing to show
Standing here in limbo
Waiting for anything
Can i really have control?
Be the master of my destinations.
It's just that when I start to fly
The stream of conciousness I indulge can stop me cold
Lately I don't need a reason
For the manic things I do
I go off just to feel emotion
Cause at least it's something new
Another sidewalk lies beneath me
Glass and steel, places to go
Still I'm not moving
The city never sleeps and I'm bored,
Of playing games with people who cheat
It's crazy here in limbo
But I just can't seem to leave
Everybody tells me what I'm doing wrong
But I'm looking in the mirror
They're the same as me,
Not sad or happy
Wanting somewhere to run too
Well you know it's been awhile
Letting go of things,
And people too
Lately i really miss you,
Yeah i miss you all the time

Shot down in cold blood fever
Spread the news as fast as you can
Get it out to all the fine people
They wanna know
But they don't wanna understand

Some kid, a little bit hyper
Takes his medicine like a good boy
Hard snap in his head one monday
Spraying bullets with his new shiny metal toy

Black Shadow Symphony
Come whisper loudly in my ear
With every little sound bite
I'm more addicted to your fear

Front page on every paper
Television special report
Soak it up like a sponge on steroids
If it's bad, we only want to hear it more

Hey you, the one in denial
You can dream but you're never gonna sleep
Take a hard look in the mirror
Everyone of us is part of a disease yeah

Black shadow symphony
Come whisper loudly in my ear
With every little sound bite
I'm more addicted to your fear

Everybody says put the kid in a jail for life
Or better yet let the sucker fry
He's an evil child
Load 'em up and ship 'em off to another galaxy
(there's) nothing wrong with our society
The home of the well adjusted man

Drowning in mindwaves
Just below the surface of sane
A star in a movie
That plays over and over again

Where did they go
All of those dreams
We had when we were young
Wanted to be
Something so pure
They silenced the dreamer

Got a lot of time
And I'm here to stay
In tommorow's yesterday
And I feel alive
In this moment I'm free
The past is gone, and I'll never be.....

Selling my soul out
Spiritual prostitution you know
The vulchers are waiting
For any sign of weakness to show

Why do we hear
Only the lies
That make us crumble
They're too afraid to go that high
And that's why they break us down

Got a lot of time
And I'm here to stay
In tommorow's yesterday
And I feel alive
In this moment I am alive
The past is gone and I believe

Acid mind trip on some enchanted blue star
Heavenly bodies look closer than they are
Some wasted bound to die person said
You're living out of your element my boy don't you know
Cinematic in ghostly angelic light
Hypersensitive, to the words draped in white
It's unbecoming to me now
This acting so naive, when I'm old enough to know how
There must be someone out there
Behind the door to somewhere
Waiting for me when I cross over
There must be light at the end
Sunsets on a warm horizon
There must be someone out there for me

I almost feel her hand on my face
As I fall into this I release myself from the ground

There must be someone out there
Behind the door to somewhere
Waiting for me when I cross over
There must be light at the end
Sunsets on a warm horizon
There must be someone out there for me

Well it's a slow moving car baby
Feels like I'm getting nowhere
Got the top pulled down to catch the wind
Blow the smell of you out of my hair
Well I've never been very stable
Seems like wherever I am it won't be for long
And I just don't know what I'm after anymore
Cause what I thought I knew was right couldn't be more wrong
You were a high wall to climb baby
And I never quite got over you
Yeah I knew all along I was slipping down
From the bottom of your heart and into the deep blue
Sometimes it's hard just to hold the wheel
But I'm keeping my eyes on this road
For my heart is a heavy load
So I might just have to leave it with you
Everything that I want to do
Comforts me tonight
I been leaking my soul across your floor
Sweeping my dreams away
And even though I've been losing sleep
I'm just keeping my eyes on this road
For my heart is a heavy load
Better know I'm gonna be alright
Got a long way to go but I got a lot of long nights
And everytime that I think of you, I'm gonna play my guitar
And I'll sing a little happy tune
Yeah my heart is a heavy load and that's why pretty girl I'm gonna leave it on your doorstep
I don't need it where I'm gonna be, It's a big wide world and I'll get a new one for free......

Is it right, the way we do each other?
Talking cheap exploiting what's uncovered
We're only human, you and I and the ones that we love
If god is our witness then she'd say
Why don't you get a life
Get a life
Why don't you get a life
Get a life
You think you know me, but I think you're on crack
Since I met you, been pulling knives from my back
We're in this together, you and I and the ones that we love
If god is our witness then she'd say
Why don't you get a life
Get a life
Why don't you get a life
get a life
We're only human, you and I and the ones that we love
If god is our witness then she'd say
Why don't you get a life
Get a life
Why don't you get a life
Get a life

Like anyone would be
I am flattered by your fascination with me

Like any hotblooded human
I have simply wanted an object to crave

But you
You're not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight

Must be strangely exciting
To watch the stoic squirm
Must be somewhat heartening to watch shepherd meet shepherd

But you
You're not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight

Like any uncharted territory
I must seem greatly intriguing
You speak of my love like you have experienced love like mine before

But this is not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight

I don't think you unworthy
I need a moment to deliberate

I don't feel the same today
something turned around
and I am different,
everything has changed
even pain has lost it's edge
used to tie me up and hold me hostage
but now I know it's game
out from under me
strange how beautiful
this life has just become
elastic I will be
I'm blind and then I see
it always comes to me
when I can let it go
been so long since i was here
really in this place with you
it feels good to know where I belong
colors bursting at my eyes
like a new born I'm infactuated
I have to touch it all
enter sanity
open skies that never seem to ever end
elastic I will be
submerged and then I'm free
it always comes to me
when I can let it go



Out from under me
strange how beautiful
this world has just become
elastic i will be
I'm blind and then I see
it always comes to me when
I can let it go