smile, can't you see i am still me, anti-authority,
same philosophy, enjoying life as much as i can i will.
trying to create that contagious smile with that passion that I long to succeed
in my ways days pass by i am not gonna sit here no more no more
no more won't you see your not me why would you want to be your an individual
on your own do what you want 'cuz you want to.

sick and angered by my friends extremely cold and heartless talkin shit
behind my back about me to my friends the source a jealous passion towards
a spirit stuck in contention and fame just need some time to myself
again need to bring back the old days when i was in control of my life
again and again just endangered with my friends extremely bold and honest
i'll be when it comes to me i said i was sorry
but you don't hear me i tried to say that i was sorry to you
but you don't think i speak honestly that's ok cause i can move on now
i am so sorry no

life sucks sometimes, friendships turn to lies,
a hatred in disguise it brings tears to my eyes,
i can see the truth from the neutral side in my mind,
confusion cripples me unto my element of control unsureness.
emotional times i'm just fine.
trauma's etched in my mind, i can see 'em all the time,
i've seen my share of pain and suffering,
i am just fine, respecting something more than nothing all the time,
and it's time, to move on. i have seen my faith sailing away,
and i have seen my faith's coming back to me, i can see it,
coming back to me,
i can see it, i can taste it,
i can live it cuz i'm just fine

well i need to be around you and i need to see your eyes on me now
and i need to caress your face with mine
and i need to know that you care 'cause i bleed in pain when i'm without your soul
cuz I love you on a level so high ot's hard sometimes I know i am to me around you
we have to be together now I'll miss you while I'm gone
but here and now is where I belong.
will you wait around for me,
I hope so 'cause without eachother we're wrong

i've come to grips unreality through fatality realized just how much happiness
brings to me fight lately doubt and worries inflicted my mind with an illness of ego
the worst of its kind been so busy unhappy unnerved
i can see my destiny is chasing me i am finally happy
and ready to go i had a one night stand with myself
last night the fright of a lifetime once again i have proven my strength to myself
on my own

frankly modest speech dishonest eyes uponus like a vulture in the sky
hovering carcass moulding earth filthy birth afterlife friction
based upon fiction replacing friendship untrueness speculation concentration heresy
is controlling us all this flagrant foul stench upon us
overwhelming everybody like an imaginary forklife brother
you point you finger as a scolding motherf*cker sucker blaming evil
upon another under that pedestal you hold yourself
so high above us i can't imagine what it's like to not a give a sh*t about nothin live
the whole damn story led in motion peers are punished
for their individuality separating us all
i can't believe my friends would make such a lie even though it was
i that dishonored your trust but it's done
i can't change the past i am gonna make us last just believe in me
and i'll show you that they're nothing true

it's ironic considerate rarity patron of love higher knowledge engulfs me
'cause the blast of fate a lesson to my eyes concerned
and overwhelmed theirs were of fear and i am feelin so empty inside
and yet it bruns so akward this time it's something with my pride lies
i cannot hide my true side and maybe in distress i can still come out laughing
that's the way i am this little boy proud of helping those in need
but he's not me but just maybe he could be
i can see it now because i am a hero to his eyes
temporarily blind this immature kid a spirit as well an angel hiding by helping
and wanting to understand me tears a waterfall of acide
cries from his eyes i need to recognize it's meant to be
am i hard to recognize what do i need to realize
why can't i see with my own fucking eyes what do i need to see

I am seeing tunnel vision in a world thats dark and cold,
I cannot believe how much I've changed since the days of old,
I know it's temporary but I need to focus straight,
I cannot believe I lost control of my fate,
I need forgiveness from the people I truely care about,
I need support behind my back to help me spit it out I am gonna win,
I can't afford to blow this one,
I hate myself sometimes,
I love myself,
I need this way of life because it holds me.
contradictions the way of life happiness is wealthyness is healthy
now I've made it through those lies and deceit,
I think whats done is done and I can't complain anymore i am sure,
now that I've found myself again it feels great I can't believe
I'd lost control of my fate.

I'm your mirror's reflection,
what you don't like about me is what you hate in yourself,
you should see through others eyes
be4 you go ahead and make 'em feel like shit stop it
but you won't because you hate yourselves images bitch,
sometimes i get so frustrated haunting visions in the back of my mind,
oh you struck a pose w/
your hand extended open arms in an idiocratic ways you try to lie to yourselves
but you can't break through that sacred wisdom of your spirit...
used...
freak....
sometimes i would give anything just to be somethin more than nothin'...

I am just a person like you, I am just a fuck-up that's true,
but your the only one I'll turn to by my side everyday
and night its time to climb out of this big black hole
even if i can justify that i am alive
and alright your still the one i'll turn to by my side so I cry alone,
I can't believe you drag me down again,
just when i think i'm fine i always then realize
that i am the only one to turn to me inside.

ill times rollin' lackin the flow ache in my throat and wisdom seems so lost,
and yet it's better in ways it's different,
i miss those oldschool meditations when relaxing
and getting visions was a given w/
my eyes closed i propose a toast, to myself to find the time to ask my lord
and galaxy to point me in the right direction,
i got my foot in the door,
i gotta keep on writin' and stay planted to this world,
be4 i can take off....
please come back to me i need to say goodbye to these old ways
stagnant lifestyle's no longer in my way, i gotta keep on movin',
so i pray, and wait for a sign from my guides, they help me proceed as i lay,
and dream of my future, i miss those times....
cumback to me.....

I make an impact on lives through truth as well as lies,
I overcome your eyes and leave an etched memory forever,
it's my gift my intentions, are only well,
its my gift, fine i lead people everyday,
always in the correct way, never lead astray,
and leave an etched memory forever an open mind is hard to find.