I am Tired
I am Drained
I don't Sleep for days
Immersed in the Drama
Strapped to your Stage
I don't want to be Just Another lover on a Ledge

I can't give you your Life
I can't give you my Sympathy
Off your knees
Release Me
I'm Whole Again

I want to Fly
I want to Run
I want to Hide from you
Then I want to Crawl back and Lie down And Hold on to you
I don't want to be Just Another Lover on a Ledge
I don't want to be Just Another Lover on the Edge

I can't give you my Life
I can't give you the Rest of me
Off your knees
Release Me
I'm Whole Again

What Am I?
I Wish I Was A Butterfly I'd Fly And Fly
Until It Was My Time To Die
It's Creeping In Again
I Know What I Really Am
No More Pretty, Purple,
Peaceful Butterfly

Simple Life
If I Were A Butterfly
I'd Fly And Fly
Until It Was My Time To Die
Its Creeping In Again
I Know What I Really Am
No More Pretty, Purple,
Peaceful Butterfly
Come See The Blood That's In My Bed
Come Hear The Things
That Nobody Talks About
Shut Up You Mouth
Shame On You Shame On Me

Look At Me
I Wish I Was A Honey Bee
Anything, Anything Other Than
The Things I Have Been
I Slip Out Of My Skin
So I Don't Have To Do It Again
But Just A Passing Thought
And Your Filth Is Seeping In

Come Scrub My Hands
They Won't Come Clean
Come Sit With Me
While The Walls Press In On Me
Shut Off That Light
Shame On You. Shame On Me.

What am I doing here?
What am I waiting for?
Will somebody fall from Heaven And join me on the floor?

Why am I holding Out, Pretending it might make sense?
I will not understand this any better then.

If Sugar Falls all over me:
If Sugar Falls then we'll see
So, I'll wait, as I always wait, as I always wish for something more

What if I try escaping
hoping for some repair
and then what if all of this
Heartache follows to find me there?

Please, I Don't Know What You're Saying
It All Sounds Like Mud To Me
There's A Man Here
I've Seen His Face
He's Sure I'll Recognize Him And He's Breathing All His Hate On Me
He Binds My Wrists And He Throws Me Down

And I Can't See

Wake Me
I Hope I'm Dreaming
I Am Beautiful
I'm Beautiful
Wake Me.
There Must Be Some Mistake

No, I Don't Hear What I'm Hearing
Fear You Are My New Best Friend
Cause These Wicked Boys Brought Their Pieces And Their Itchy Fingers
And The Panic Crawls Into My Throat Cause I Turn My Head And They're Looking At Me.

And I Can't Breathe

Save Me I Think I'm Bleeding
I Am Beautiful
I'm Beautiful
Save Me
There Must Be Some Mistake

And I Can't Scream
I Can't Scream
I'm Bleeding
I Am Beautiful
I'm Beautiful
Save Me
There Must Be Some Mistake
Save Me
Look, I'm Bleeding
I Am Beautiful
I'm Beautiful
Save Me
There Must Be Some Mistake

I am wearing this weight Again
It cuts like it did then
It's consuming all my thoughts
and swallowing me Again

And what you see is what's left of me
but I'm here
I didn't think I'd scare very easily
but I fear this thing

It is wearing me out and thin
Paralyzing me Again
It was vicious all the way here
I am barely alive

I wish you love
With anyone else but me
I wish you love with anyone

And all I can do I will do for you
If I'm here
I promise you I'll remember you
While I'm here

I wish you love Again
I am surrendering me
Surrendering mine

Hiding here, Hoping this will finally give me peace
Pretty please
Readying, practicing the damage on my cheek

I'm not about to crumble
I'm not about to cave
I'm not about to paint you a picture
So you'll see me

You don't bleed like I do
You don't feel what I do
You don't live in this awful place
You don't know the darkness like I do

With any luck, I've allowed for all the time I'll need
Pretty please
Deep enough, at least as far as I can feel

I'm not about to fumble
I'm not about to fail
I'm not about to scream bloody murder
So you'll Hear Me

You don't know the darkness but I do

Although it's warm outside
I feel cold inside my skin
I really could have used fair warning
Then maybe I'd survive this hell I'm in
This is easy
This is easier

If I could heal myself
Where would I begin?
I really wish I'd had a shoulder
I'd try and climb from this hole I'm in
This is easy
This is easier

Locked in all alone here
Fate is in my fingertips
There isn't anyone that can hold me here
Do you think this is courage?
Does this make me brave?
It's just a consequence of the easiest choice that I've made

This is easy
T this is easier for me
Than to pretend that this will ever get easier for me

Do you think this is Selfish?
Does this make me crazed?
It's just a consequence of the easiest choice that I've made

This will never get easy
I don't think so

See? The Tide Is Turning Now And I'm Fading, Fading
I Have No Excuses Anymore
This Is Where I Wanted To Be
You've Twisted Me Out From The Inside
And You've Hung Me In The Wind

You Are My Weakness
You May Be My Downfall

I'm Helpless As You Move Away
I Am Empty, Aimless
I Have No Illusions Anymore
They Just Ran Right Out Of Me
And Every Day I'll Fight Not To Miss You
Every Day I'll Lose

You Are My Weakness
You May Be My Downfall

So Just Leave Me Here With My Tortured Heart
Or Stay And Watch As I Cut It Out

You Are My Weakness
You May Be My Downfall
I Don't Know Really, Really What You Want From Me
I Don't Know What You Really Want From Me
But You Will Be My Downfall

I will never tell you
I'd rather sew up my mouth
I'd choke sooner than ever say it out loud
Figure it out
I still wish you were here

I am breaking down from breaking in
Give me the wings to fly
Don't you see me trying to ride out this hurricane?

It's impossible for what's left of this to be saved
And it's sinking in that my being here's a mistake
Erase
Forget I was here

Don't you see me trying?
I'm slit now I'm sliding
Floating, flying
I'm ready for my fade
I will wait for you here because you are all I know

They Tell Me I Have To Get Out Of Bed
They Tell Me I Have To Keep Up My Strength
I've Got To Eat Something
I'm Hoping That The Taste Will Kill Me
I Have Agonized To Find A Different Way

And There Is No Soothing For The Boiling Of My Skin
There Is No Comfort Here

So What If I'm Standing Here?
I Still Hurt From My Hair To My Feet
I Know This Is Nothing Now But Once It Was Everything

They Tell Me I Have To Get Up And Dressed
They Tell Me I Have To Start Getting Out
I've Got To Keep Busy
Maybe Exhertion Will Do Me In
I Have Been Defiled A Thousand Different Ways

There Is No Pressure For The Hemorraging
There Is No Healing Me

So What If I'm Walking Now?
I Still Burn Every Time That I Breathe
I Know This Is Nothing Now But Once It Was Everything

It Rips Me From My Dreams
I Swear I Hear Your Voice
I Run From Room To Room To Find You

So What If I'm Walking Now?
I Still Burn Every Time That I Breathe
I Know This Is Nothing
Nothing
To Me This Is Everything

I Realize This Is One Man's Sin But I Can't Deny That You're Pulling Me In.
You Found A Way To Get Inside My Head.
And, Yes, I'm Gonna Know Better Than To Sleep With You But At The Same Time I Got This Need To Feel You.
Let Me Put My Hands All Over You.

I Feel I'm Falling In.

And If I Threw You Off I Didn't Intent To.
I'm Just Wondering Do You Feel Me, Too. And You've No Idea What I'd Do To You.
Do You? Do You? Well, I Do.

Come Lie With Me And Then Let Me Touch You For Hours On And Steal A Little Piece Of Happiness.
And, Yes, I Ought To Know Better And I Thought It Through But I Can't Shake The Need To Please You.
Tell Me What You Need I'll Give It To You.

I Feel I'm Falling In. And If I Threw You Off I Didn't Intend To.
I Just Wanna Know Do You Feel It, Too.
Do You Wanna Know What I'd Do To You? Do You? Do You? Well, Sure You Do.

And If I Threw You Off I Didn't Intend To. I'm Just Wondering Do You Feel Me, Too.
And You've No Idea What I'd Do To Do To You? Do You? Do You?
Didn't Mean To Offend You I'm Just Wondering Do You Feel It, Too.
I Wanna Know Do You Want Me, Too. Now Do You ? Do You? Well, Maybe You Do.