what makes you think that it'll all work out in the end.
afraid to feel bad. better off to try and pretend. I'm
immortal, immune to all that is wrong. just keep on wishing.
crossing my fingers. so long. is this helping? i'm growning
weaker each day. can't stop whining.
still afraid of what i might say or reactions, that control us one and all.


It's mine, it's pure and as decent as i can make myself.
Inside, we all know, only the strong survive.

Why don't you think about that?
so now i'm bleeding on myself yes once again.
seems i trusted another deceitful freind. my fault. should've known the deal.
keep your friends close, but your enemies closer, for real.
seems easy, but nothing could be so hard. trying to guess lifes
dealing. what's the next card? I'm surely folding.
i don't like this hand at all.



Keep those eyes wide open, here comes a blind side.

maybe things happen for a reason and wherein lies the answer.
to overcome the grieving of lifes unruly lessons. i'm handed
in sucession. it builds my pain which makes me strong.



Why don't you think about that??

There's another reflection involved up in my mind
A wholeness that has just been lost
Striving hard for perfection but still nothing to find
Some value with a cheaper cost
And as I reach out to hear you the sound is so muffled
It makes a lesser man of me
So the only thing left to bring up to date is


You suck!
Watch me fall while I go down
I'm taking all you bastards to the ground with
me then I'll frown
On your fucking whole life
The systematic hype still means a bit much to me


I'm at the point of retraction and still slipping further
This place is getting worse for me
There's such a lack of direction and models to live by
No bright skies ahead of me
And as I reach out for your hand you turn and
then wander
Why I simply just can't see
No separation of gender no difference in me
You're just leading me on and on and on
You lead me on and on and on and on



Pretty soon it's gonna come back and be your turn
Pretty soon you're gonna be the one that burns



Your turn now

This is my letter to you

We started following a certain description.
We started simple and fair once again
Before there wasn't any need for an answer
Things were much different then


But now you question who I am.
Who I am inside
Now there's nothing left to hide.
So here it goes
This is my letter
Hope you're alright. It's been rough for me
thinking all night. About the places I'd be
If I maybe, just did a little bit more you might've
Let me, become a man for sure
And if I might, express one concern it seems an
issue. All day at every turn
What's the next step, the latest hole in my life
What's next for me to learn

Engulf myself into a permanent mystery.
No one day just as the next.
not for me
It's so confusing when I look at my history.
I just can't handle that yet.
No



One more friendship ends.
And then for awhile.
I can breathe again

Here we go again

A very temperamental process, beginning with
all of our excess
Affecting our very own ingest, this side of
you is speechless
Overwhelmed with an abscess, creating new diseases
And infecting whomever it pleases, we've been
living this way for too long, too long

Then I noticed a difference, in the way that I
saw other insects
Who were living a life of indulgence, sheltered
by their parents
Such an unlucky existence, not given a
chance to experience
And make their own decisions, I wouldn't trade
my own mistakes at all


Reach out your hands
Out for the ones who, aid when the going gets rough
Until the end.
These are the ones who, help when the times get tough
And times will get tough.
Get up again.
Times will get tough.
Get up again

Here it comes once again

So Maybe I am Bound By Fate
A Problematic Scarring Induced By Hate
It Never Seems To All Pan Out
Is That What All This Teaching Is Needed To Scout
You Seemed To Have A Bad Effect
Your Rules And Contradictions I would Neglect
Though Not My Fault You Made Me Feel
Like My Own Education Wasnt Truly Real
Then You Came Right In Tearing Out My Soul
How Could All This Loss Be Your Only Goal
I`m Left Standing Here Desperate In The Cold
Since You Took Your Life Mine Has not Been Whole
So There I Stood A Scolded Child
The Reasons Never Questioned My Pains Been Filed
Inside This Place That Makes Me Feel
I learned Life Is Unfair And That Is Very Real

While You Try To Overcome The Lesson
Makeing The most Of Those Questions That Just
Keeps Me Guessing
I`m Looking Longer, Harder, Further Than I Ever Have
Solitude Breaking Me Down You Always Seemed Glad
To Put Me down And Stick Me In That little Pit
Personal Growth As A child That Mattered Not A Bit
Then I Became The Person That You Hated Most
Disrespecting The Father, Son, And Holy Ghost
A Small Example Of What The Things You`ve Done To Me
Have Changed In My Life And Changed The Things
I`ll Never Be
I`ll Never Be

Come on and brace your face
Engulfed up in the rat race we hold our futures down
So just resist the plot and find the answer
etched eternal
as we self destruct


day by day
one by one
more example of disrespect
that you seem to offer no more than complete neglect
a generation with fate all tied
this aint a game
we dont enjoy this ride

try to perceive the lie
all caught up in your own high
opinions of yourself
should be concerned about your life
theres been enough strife to crash a persons hope
and as the days delay our every other move
we've been consumed by apathy
thats right
it has become a pain
inside my brain is screaming
look what you've done to me



Break
its just the break we're givin em
Break
its just the break that you`re givn' em
Break

layed to waste out in the open
turned away once again
this isn't right
this ain't supposed to happen
now life's too short
we shouldn't have to die
and i have had to stop all of my emotions
why
oh bittering faith escapes agian, agian
just look at what we have done
will you look at who we've become
priorities astray
it goes on and on each day
we've wrecked their only try
and still we wonder why
we're recipients
Of hate Motherfucker

break your back
just once and then you know
you gotta
face your fright
that's right
yeah
with your five second morals and your three second smile
you just
face your fright
that's right
yeah
with your five second morals and your three second smile
you just
face your fright
that's right
yeah
with your five second morals and your three second smile
you just
face your fright
that's right
yeah
with your five second morals and your three second smile
you just

It woke up in me years ago how this was meant to be
all of those falsehoods plain to see they dug
and hung their greed
will there be profit you could see if only we were blind
lonely and sheltered, our life is free but it's
still one step behind
just like me, they tried their rules on me
they tried their rules on me, me, me
i broke those chains and fucking split
and so you and so you and so you and so you
pass all the fascist asses ignore those classes
of bottleneck masses
producing an all but awful stench, delivering a
section off all the money stole and spent
as you start to recognize you're in the game
growing afflictions head to toe, this never
should have been
but placing blame is cowardly restructure must begin
will there be profit you could see if only we were blind
lonely and sheltered your life is free, but it's
still one step behind

yes and the playing board is you...

Well it seems as though everyone's been led astray far away from.
From what we know, still can't find a reason or
the right words to say. It'll be ok.


Wrapped up in all the things that are wrong.
It's the only trial so far, as the verdict falls down you still break away.


Caught up in a social degradation, you can't even see the truth.
We're only half as good at personal relations, look around and see the proof.
Only a few of us go in the right direction, even though we're singled out.
It's the only thing that keeps
me alive, I do what I have to do.

How was I to know, force fed corporate trials each day, every single day.
But we must grow, echoing the single most thing in the way.




Not slipping, still drifting, falling one step further from the norm.
What is the norm? Not living, longing, trying so much
harder than before. What if I, what if I run far away?
Would I still be seen the same? Break away.



It's what I want.

Here we sit all alone in an outnumbered fight
led to decipher between wrong and right
and some may fail at this joke that some of
us call life
yes at this game some call life
but the system can't bail me out of hell
i've made this descovery and it has helped
all i've got is myself i have faith in that
believe and one day you'll do just as well now
as you were you little puppet you pauper you
freak that's right
that's what some of them have said to me
so i object and try to figure things out for myself
i'm building up full emotional wealth

the inner strength is what the hate it wants
us not to feel
it's time that we helped there's no room to fail
you already know the way out of hell
all we got is ourselves i have faith in that
believe and one day
we'll put the system in jail, we'll put the system in jail
i made it through scraped black and blue
but so can you i made it through so black and blue
but you can too i made it through scraped
black and blue
but so can you i've made it through
we'll all make it through

Long.
I`ve Been Running away for far too long
Afraid of what
Afraid of what I know is soon to come
I may not be much of an example right now
But I can give you all of my knowledge on how
to get along in this place
right now all I can say


Is that I will do the best that I can
to be a good example of man
I know one day that You`ll understand
you deserve the best that I am
you deserve the best that I am

It`s So hard
so hard to think about when I was child
so angry at life
I blamed the world for such a long long time
But Things happened so quickly
some people just go
I needed answers to heal me
I wanted to know how to get by
and now its my turn to say



This is all for you
everything in this world
everything in my world
everything in your world
things wont always go right in this life
theres always changes
we`ll make it

maybe nobody told you about this life
maybe nobody answered your questions why
simple revelations they come in time
those liars told us things would all be fine
born out of whack give him something possible
you thought it would've mattered
not likely to change things we've come too far
where innocent young kids are put behind bars
but it's an easy decision banished so far
you're not as civil as you think you are

you say we're all born out of whack
well don't act so surprised how there's been
a lot going on
since you realized that we're all just kids trying
to get along
so answer one thing
are you gonna stay inside. are you gonna stay
inside of our minds?
are we all born wrong?

so you think the areas gray but it continues each day
a bad example of the attitude you portray
act like I owe you my life you should be
burdened with strife
so i continue to pray hope that
you'll go away
a bad addiction to a home wrecking thing who plays
with my heart and that's the bottom line
i feel so empty
what can you give me that I can't give myself
and what part of my life can you fix, that I
can't fix my damn self
god i'm losing patience each day i've put
myself in harms way
can't seem to justify none of the shit you say
can't find another way out here's nothing left
but pure doubt
i'm on the verge of pulling my hair straight out
so if you listen to me not to the powers that be
we're not supposed to be together can't you see
in decision is the bottom line i feel so empty now

i'm gonna show you now this time i'm getting out
i've said it many times but this time I have
figured out
just how i'm moving on it's taken way too long
inside I know i'll feel much better when you're
really gone

There must be something you can recommend.
I've lost my faith in man again
So sick of trying to pretend.
Same pain over and over again
How much longer do you think we'll stand.
So little left here to live for
By the time my life is at its end.


I want it back one more time
Let me try one more time.
Live my life one more time
We never seem ready for this

It keeps on haunting me day after day. Am I
going about things the right way
Which truth's to pass and with which truth's to say
It's all so hard I'm just so damn afraid
Had about as much as I can take.
So little left here to live for
By the time my life is at its end.
I'll want it back



I need the chance to live my life one more time
Give me the chance to live my life one more time