1. Solitude Of My Own
Years have passed now
It's another time and another world
Yet still it's all the same
Nothing ever seems to change
Dark powers manifest
Malignant horrors in my mind
Constant voices, sung by the damned
Crying out unhallowed, thoughts in my head
I have trusted and I have believed
I have pledged and I have sacrificed
My blood and mind, body and soul
Ravished and ruined after all I have done
My heart has turned to stone in this godforsaken world
My mind so I'm pure by all the filth
It is constantly exposed to
Greed, lies, betrayal is tragic
But, oh so very dominant
In the nature of creatures that are surrounding me
I now find my only shelter
In the solitude of my own
A small flame of hope
Lit somewhere out in the endless dark
Yet it's still all the same
Will it ever change ?
Fallen from grace
Surely I must be lost
My mind grows darker
As the time shows no changes
Creating venomous acts
Of emotional rejection
Deprivation of all levels
What have I done to deserve
A life so incomplete
All my dreams erased by fools
Broken promises, one after one
There can be no trust anymore
I feel the end is near
I dont have the strength
To cut me loose
I am falling apart emotionally
A soul in solitude lost forever
In the greatest of all suffering, madness and sorrow
Elements of which no euphemistic words
Can ever alleviate
2. Within Me
Lost in myself thoughts goes around
Floats in a mind hard to understand
Paralyzed by dreams impossible to reach
Far away but yet so near
A burning light far within me
I want to burn but it might die
Disappointed at life I struggle on
I reach out far, as far as I can get
I want to get up start burning again
Somewhere far away it's still glowing
But the fire that once burned
Is now cold and dead
I have to bring it back to life
Get a grip climb up again
A burning light far within me
I want to burn but it might die
Disappointed at life I struggle on
I reach out far, as far as I can get
I tumble in the dark, trying to get a grip
A grip of life, I want to turn right
A burning light far within me
I want to burn but it might die
Disappointed at life I struggle on
I reach out far, as far as I can get
4. Putrefaction
Putrefaction, hurry oh beloved bride
To establish our lonely camp
Rejected by the world, rejected by god
My hope, lies in you
Take my paining body into the wonder of you
Smother my pain in your embrace
Worms devour thought and feeling
Take my paining body into the wonder of you
Smother my pain in your embrace
Worms devour thought and feeling
Hasten, decorate our chamber
For on a scootblack bier the silent lover
your dwelling shall reach
So hasten, prepare our bridal bed
Which shall sow with carnactions
To wonderful gratification, stifling bewitchment
Us black attired comrades followeth
Our wedding march ringeth from iron bells
And shrouds of green draperies hideth us
When storms ravish the worldly seas
When atrocities reign on the bloodfilled earth
When feuds are raging, we slumber thou and I
In contented peace
Take my paining body into the wonder of you
Smother my pain in your embrace
Worms devour thought and feeling
Take my paining body into the wonder of you
Smother my pain in your embrace
Worms devour thought and feeling
To ash in my ravished heart
Oh rich are you, wench, whom I dowry
Giveth me the great, the flourishing earth
Up here, do I suffer, though happines overcomes me
In the nether with you