Strapped down and heavy, tied up
and bound
This weight I carry, this weight
I've found
So, let me be the one to say I've
really had enough

Downfallen on
(Yes, you meant the world to me)
My sweet love
So headstrong
(Are you?)
Strong

One time too many
You've let me down
Won't think what could be
Can' feel much now

Downfallen on
(Yes, you meant the world to me)
My sweet love
So headstrong
(Are you?)
Strong

Does it realy meant that much to you,
To hide your fear, to test the way I feel

Watch me fall
Watch me break
Watch me crawl
Watch me throw it all away

I can't believe the things you say, so
wrong for how I eel this way
I'm sleeping to relieve this strain so...
Calmly, slowly, softly, just let it all
just drift away

Looking through the hole of time
I can see the end is coming
closer - I can hear it calling
(beating away at me)
touching every soul in fear
comforting from far and near
how I wish you all the best
(in all your misery)
Angry and I'm feeling so (scared)
only cuz i wanna face all these fears
I close my eyes
(I'm drifting out far away)
angry and I'm feeling so...
only cuz I wanna face all these fears
I close my eyes
(to sleep off this misery)
Hello darkness there inside
blacking out the light of day
stick your heart out open wide
let it go and find its way
Looking through the hole of time
(you'll never get away)
touching every soul in fear
(and all of your misery)
looking through the hole of time
(you'll never get away)
closer - I can hear it calling
(beating away at me)

You stay all in one piece when broken
Kind remarks, and your words soft-spoken
Driving far from the path of destruction
Coming ever so close to throwing it all away again

Is this all some great big lie?
Twisted and working on something deep down
That you should?ve never kept inside

How much must I live through just to get away?
(All this tension and so alive)
How much must I live through just to get away?
(All this pressure that makes your head feel so tired)

You've been through the worst encounters
Searching out the truth, the light, and way
You have thoughts of peace and silence
Coming ever so close to giving it all away again

Is this all some great big lie?
Sick and disturbing, you want no answers
But you should've never looked inside

How much must I live through just to get away?
(All this tension and so alive)
How much must I live through just to get away?
(All this pressure that makes your head feel so tired)

And sometimes it seems easier to burn it to the ground

Can we get away now?
Can we get away now?
Can we get away now?
please just let this go away

Don't leave me alone
I'm feeling so numb
I need you to be here, I need you to call
and everything's wrong
a beautiful shame
everything's ugly, hazy, and gray
doesn't it hurt?
trick and control you
deceive and destroy you
doesn't it hurt?
forget and move on
I'm here and I'm strong
I've got you to blame when it's finally done

I'm not afraid
of these feelings here inside
I'm sure someday I'll let go of all this hate for you...
I'll let go of all this hate

Does it make you feel inside what you've never felt before
does it promise you a life, but that left you all alone
doesn't it hurt?
trick and control you
deceive and destroy you
doesn't it hurt?
forget and move on
I'm here and I'm strong
I've got you to blame when it's finally done

Wait, there is too much on my mind
are we here just to simply pass the time?
all these questions awake inside my head
all these questions awake inside me...[repeat]

Now, what I would give
what I would try...
to be with just an ordinary girl
what I would give again, only if I...
could be with just an ordinary girl

Stop, I'm not happy anymore
you bring heartache and anger to the core
I have nothing to give inside me now
I have nothing to give inside me...[repeat]

Doesn't really matter, I'm alone now
thrown out to the world
do you feel the same?
cuz we all feel the same...sometimes

Sometimes I feel like I'm losing it all
abused and beat down and thrown to the wall
how can they do this to someone at all?
something so awful
woke up this morning I hoped and I prayed
nothing can stop me I'm well on my way
if I can have anything that I want
why does this happen?

We gain, we lose, we fall
and we stand right up again
we gain, we lose and we fall
and we stand right up again
I can be anything I want to be
losing myself in a world that can't be
coming together and falling apart we stand....we fall....

I can see clearly the crack in your soul
looking for something to patch up the hole
if you need someone to reach for, console, just call my name...
you have been searching for so long inside
a meaningful calling your heart can't deny
I try so hard just to stand on my own
how can this happen? (again)

I can finally see the light
no more darkness
I feel so much more alive

Fall to my knees just to be close to God
and I fall to the floor from your love
I am weakened by your tenderness
and touched by your innocence
I search just to find that you're enough
I'm here, call on me
everything, you and me
every moment I think of you is...(every thought that shatters)

All this time just to break up
I'm bored and so alone
wake up
I'm bored and so alone
wake up

I will be your protector
guided by the light from heaven
I will stand and never be undone
like a flame with a million hours
keeping warm this enchantment
all that goes inside this grace is yours
I'm here, call on me
everything, you and me
every moment I think of you is...(every thought that shatters)

Love me, love me before you tell me all the reasons why you wouldn't have me
everything's so fucked up in my head
I don't know for sure that's what she said
tell me, tell me please won't you let me tell you how inside I feel so empty
nothing left just thoughts of better times
letting heal this broken heart and mind
I can't find your will to be saved
waking all this fear inside me
I can't find your will to be saved
wake up find yourself inside me

I never cared much for this world
(I just want to be someone like you)
but I never said I wouldn't reach deep down to blow them all away

I can feel it
but I don't know where my life's supposed to go
I can see it
but I'm covered by the fear of the unknown
I could hear it
but my head's too sick to listen on my own
wanna do it my way

I never had much of my own
(I just wanna feel the sun like you)
but I never said I wouldn't spread these wings to rise and fly away

Will I be here for you?
of course I will
just remember when you're by yourself...
I've faced trying times, and I've seen pain
I've been through many different walks of life
and just because I haven't seen them all
doesn't really matter cuz I'm floating

I can't stay forever
and you're too insulting to me (darling)
I can't live forever and be who they want me to be and...

I
I cannot pretend
I will not surrender these dreams in my head
I
I will not disguise
they cannot cover the stars in my eyes
asleep I lie

Fall, like I do
will this be the first time for you?
walk on me, I walk on you
stuck on me, stuck on you

All the things they're telling me
make me wanna up and leave
but I'm not sure that now's the time
and I'm not sure of anything
but even if I crossed the line
at least I'm being true to life
It's me out with the stars tonight [repeat]

I wanna be sure
I wanna make clear
I want you to know
I love you my dear
me, I'm so dirty, covered in spite
maybe you'll come back cuz you want me, maybe you won't

But you were so young
don't you feel dumb?
you're not the only unfortunate one

Held in your head
the things that they said
and all of the lies and bad things they did
me, I'm unworthy, callous and cold
maybe you need me cuz you're lonely, maybe you don't
and we all live
and make mistakes
and build up walls that make us safe
spitting on all that make us sick

I struggled with this pain inside, but it was too strong
you looked so catatonic, ya knew it was wrong
destructive, tainted, heated words scraped off your tongue
singing wholly sinful song

If you feel the same way, and you want to go to heaven for the first time...
one more time [repeat]
You wanna know the reason why I am the way I am
you wanna hear the truth the love the way that only I can tell
you wanna hear a song that moves and hangs inside of you
you wanna feel and see the magic that only I can sell

I'm gonna plug it in, turn it up, settle in
and turn the self indulgent matrons over belly up
I'm gonna find a way to touch you...
and blow away the hate for you to hear this fallen angel's song

My dear friends out there, standing atop the mountain
did you find your faith in God
when you found that you were buried at the bottom?